I haven't felt relief in years.
It was all because I was carrying the shame and guilt of messing up a relationship that I trully believed would turn out to be really bumpy yet GREAT and satisfying to the soul, if it was given a chance. The kind of chemistry that comes once or twice in a lifetime.
But as of tonight, I am free of that burden.
Its both liberating and melancholic at the same time. I bet if he reads this, he would say, "Philosophical sial...!!", typical of him. But at last, I can trully put the past behind me. I no longer holds on to the hope for him to return and fulfill his promise. And frankly, I no longer want anything from him except for his own happiness.
Tonight is special. I had a great birthday present indeed,... INNER PEACE. Happy 25th birthday, Jannah Zarmani. ;)
/jann is beginning to smile again..
3 comments:
Happy belated birthday, Jann. Let me know if there's a gathering. :)
Sincere regards,
Soon Hoi.
Haha, thanks!
Been wondering who might you be and walah! Zen Master = Dixon. Erase all hope of me calling you Soon Hoi. I'm sticking with Dixon, lol~!
Apa apa aje lah. Just call me Dixon oso can one lah. I'm tired to get defensive already.
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